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i have that dead inside feeling
again
crawling deep
inside
inward
outward
trying to force
the words out
apppear normal
appear sane
to everyone else
to the world
dont believe
in normalcy
and sanity
anymore
states that we've lost
tomorrow
another lost notion
trying to survive




2016

Just started...

So I've decided to try blogging because....hmm. I'm pretty sure it was an important reason. It's Monday people. Longest day of the week for me, and I as I sit in this office reading paranormal romance, I've realized a few things.

Anyway, I remember writing a lot when i was younger. Like 11 or so. I loved it. Even back then I would come up with stuff that maybe a lil' kid should not be talking about. I actually look forward to digging up some old files and posting some of my earlier work. I even created a story but based it entirely on the dragon ball z universe. Yes, I was a weird kid. :)

It just so happens that years later, I started losing that love of writing. I mean I still read and stuff but not like I used to. I feel like my teenage angst has turned into my grown up angst because I never lost it; just the ability to express it.

I think I might just wanna prove to myself that I still got it. So, if i find any of my old stuff, I'll post with closest date and compare to anything new I might come up with in the future.

That's all for now!

Alvin And The Chipmunks Road Chip Final Song (You Are My Home)

Waiting...

static
i am frozen
choosing to not choose
blatantly
demanding nothing
inside
where I've gone cold
grown hard
towards you
and your eyes
mimicking the gremlins
ghosts in my machine
shorting out my frustrations
so im pliant
beneath you
waiting
for something
of nothing
choosing
to not have a choice
alone...