B & D

as my memory of you

fades

it comes to me 

that my mind

is forgetting you 

my strength 

my voice 

you are gone 

but 

these things remain 

in me 

around me 

i reach for you 

trying to hold on 

to the ghost 

of your presence 

waiting 

watching 

your withdrawal

trying to stop forgetting you 

my memories of you 

bittersweet 

nonsensical and romantic

understandable 

but only in crisis

leaving me...

7th april, 2016

back room, no internet

So awful...

Realizing that I hadn't actually written anything in a while, I decided to try for it today. I was supposed to be on lunch but got distracted watching the latest episode of Empire, only to have my tablet die on me 3 mins to the end of said episode. Don't worry... no spoilers forthcoming. :) My ranting would take up quite some space on the internet and what good would that do us all?

I'm trying to forget about it for now while I'm on a quick recharge (sucky usb cord...ugh!), and switched instead to looking up dark times by the weeknd as i actually havent heard that song since it was on my playlist on rdio.com (yet another rant held in check). Seriously between the weather and the new school decisions that I'm facing this week, its insanity that my ill temper is not showing. Or at least... I hope not.